The cow has retired

I think I officially am done with providing Trey with breast milk.  I wanted to say I am officially done with breastfeeding or nursing, but that happened a few weeks ago when Trey refused to nurse.  Since then I have been dropping pump sessions, and today is the first day that I haven't pumped.  I think the cow has officially retired.

I am feeling a little more melancholy about this than I anticipated.  I think it is partly because Trey is no longer a wee baby relying on me for nourishment and partly because he is moving out of his infant stage.   We haven't decided yet whether we will have a second baby, so this makes Trey leaving the baby stage even harder.

I am also feeling a little neurotic about Trey's eating (I am blaming any current neurosis or emotional instability on my weaning and changing hormones).  Today he has hardly eaten anything.  I feel like I'm in a food slump and can't figure out what to feed him.  Then when I do feed him something new, he often has a nasty diaper soon after so I am paranoid that he is having reactions to the food.  My poor sister, a stellar registered dietitian, is probably very sick of my phone calls and questions.

And then there's his legs.  Although today I found out it is his arms and trunk too.  Trey apparently has low muscle tone which has caused him to have some delays in his gross motor skills.  We have been keeping an eye on this for almost four months (a long time for an anxious special educator mother if I do say so myself) and today I took him to his first physical therapy appointment.  I thought I was just supposed to be worried about him not using his legs to bear weight, but now I find that he has all sorts of other muscles he isn't using either.  She gave us a list of activities to do to help and we go back in two weeks.  I am sure lucky to have Randy to help with these exercises because this is not a strength of mine (causing my child any discomfort OR exercising - ha!).

On Monday we went to visit Kjersten and Nolan at the park.  It was one of those Oregon spring days where the sky was blue so it seemed like it should be warm, but it was really quite chilly.   So chilly, in fact, that we left and went to Kjersten's house instead.

On Wednesday Trey got to ride in a grocery cart for the first time.  I thought he would be super fussy because he had a crappy nap day at daycare, but he was thrilled!  Smiled and was enthralled with everything around him for the whole trip.  And he was pretty cute to boot!

My sister Julie is having a pretty awesome spring.  Currently, she and her husband, Tim, are in Maui for a surprise birthday trip.  Tim kept the trip a secret for three months and they flew out yesterday morning for Julie's 32nd birthday.  What a guy!  Also, Julie and Tim are expecting their first baby in October!!!!  So so so excited to have a niece or nephew and can't wait for Trey to have a cousin!